Paris. I don t want to hear about Paris. It s cold there. I m sick and<br > tired of going to doctors. They don t know anything， they can t do<br > anything. I m not going to go to fucking Paris!<br > In July of 1985， Rock Hudson s health was sinking at an alarmiug<br >rate. James Wright， the butler， found his bedsheets soaked with sweat<br >every morning. Rock had dropped from 225 pounds to 170. He could<br >barely keep food down. His body was covered with rashes that itched<br >and drove him mad. He started to forget appointmetlts， and wan-<br >dered around the house and grounds in his jockey shorts.<br > Besides his doctors， only four people in the world knew Rock had<br >AIDS: Mark Miller， his secretary; George Nader， who lived with Mil-<br >ler; James Wright; and Dean Dittman， an actor friend whom Rock<br >had confided in shortly after learning he had the disease. For a year，<br >these four had watched helplessly as Rock faded before their eyes， yet<br >insisted on working and keeping up the illusion that nothing was<br >wrong.<br > Periodically， they urged him to go back to Paris， where he had<br >gone in 1984 for injections of the experimental drug HPA 23. It was<br >believed the drug could inhibit the AIDS virus， but it worked like<br >insulin--one had to take it continually. Without the injectious， the<br >virus would grow back. When Rock had left Paris， the treatment ap-<br >peared to have been successful. His blood was cultured and no AIDS<br >virus was found. Rock promised his doctor， Dominique Dormont， to<br >return in a few months， but almost a year had elapsed and Rock<br >would not go back. When friends suggested it， he said， "I don t want<br >to hear about fucking Paris!"<br > Instead， he appeared in nine episodes of Dynasty， and when Doris<br >Day asked him to be the first guest on her show， Doris Day s Best<br >Friends， on the Christian Broadcast Network， Rock accepted. Thc<br >night before he was to leave for Carmel， California， to tape the show.<br >Mark Miller said to Rook， "I don t think you should go."<br >